de fiecare data!

De fiecare data cand sunt oleaca trista imi vina sa scriu aici, parca vars amaru cuiva..parca nu mai e nevoie sa daram si sa arunc..

De fiecare data cand fac asta e din lipsa de preocupare...oare ar fi mai bine sa dorm?

De fiecare data cand oamenii se dovedesc a fi niste neseriosi insensibili eu ma enervez..repet de fiecare data..ma las purtata de aceashi incredere stupida..care mai mereu duce in acelashi loc..apropo de circularitate..

De fiecare data cand imi vine sa pictez imi dau seama ca n-am instrumentele de care ash avea nevoie, da nici nu merg sa mi le cumpar...poate trebuia sa merg cu el sa-i arat exact ce vreau..nu sa stau sa astept muncitorii in casa(oricum nice thought-PS femeia vesnic nemultumita)./.

De fiecare data aceashi rutina stupida, care simt ca-mi intra in vene si inima se chinuie sa o pompeze..si fac nebunii numai sa ies din ea si ajung sa racesc...

De fiecare data esti tu de vina..

De fiecare data sunt eu de vina..

De fiecare data ma gandesc ca dak o pun pe hartie trece

WaNt YoU

I just finished seeing a movie..The Open Road..kind of cheesy but it had something...
Something clicked in my head when she tells him that there is only one person for you in your life and u'll never love anyone else like u loved him..That could be very harsh..(i'm going trough one of those days)..Of course it's bullshit and u can do whatever u want in your life, but still LOVE: that's big..
What if she's right all of a sudden?What if we end up loosing the one person we trully loved?or even sadder..end up not finding that ONE person..
I for instance am a trully wacky person, i like falling in love, i love almost everyone(oh yeah, except for those who seem right and conforting:)))How could we( me and my wackyself) live with that?This is sad..trully..What if i lost HIM? Did i ever meet HIM?Who could HE be?What if i didn't struggle enought to have him?
Should we, women struggle? Weren't we supposed to wait in our castle for prince charming to come rescue us?
How could we find HIM without being weak, or being open with every jurk that seems nice?
It kinda sucks as ?I put it..doesn't it:)) And to think that my friends say i'm optimistic:))and full of life..
I couldn't end it without posting the theme song that brought me to this state of mind..and telling HIM to come rescue me one of these days..when he feels like it:)

Nighty night!

Ciocolata calda cu marturisiri

Cea mai buna Ciocolata calda ever e aici langa mine. Mor sa merg sa o beau..desi nu o fac prea des..nu de alta da mi-e sa nu ma satur..
Si nu pot sta singura la masa, am fost cu El. El e "the comfortable man", acela de stii ca te iubeste si ti-ar pune lumea la picioare ,dar tu nu poti..si e bine cu el, ma simt asha linistita..mereu ma calmeaza si tine sedinte cu mine-imi vrea doar binele.
Lui ii pot spune chestii, poate El chiar ma asculta-sau asha imi place mie sa cred:))
M-a surprins azi de dimineata cu cadoul ce l-a primit de Iepurash: o prietena buna:) trebuia sa ne intalnim sa-mi povesteasca si cum stam asha sa-l ascult si-l vedeam cum gesticuleaza plin de patos am realizat ca ma priveam in oglinda..Gen stiu ca ne asemanam tare..dar chiar in halul asta?Acelashi entuziasm de fiecare data knd ma indragostesc, accelashi zambet idiot..acceashi siguranta oarba..
Nu i-am spus..imi placea sa ma "vad" in fata mea fericita:) Ce copil..